Stress

I am so beyond stress right now that I cannot even describe it. Well it is kind of like being in the depths of despair - but without the despair if that makes sense. With everything that is happening with Emilie, 3 extra people living in my house, moving at the end of the month, and most importantly my classes in which there are mountains of assignments to do snowballing together - I am going CRAZY ! These past several days I have been trying to work on 3 papers that were due on Friday (of course it is late) and I can't even keep a train of thought! My papers consist of many paragraphs that start off good - but fizzle out becuase I have lost it. ARGH! I am just frustrated. I have been staring at my laptop for several days with nowhere to go. Frankly I wish I could just drop out of school and go on an extended break and do nothing but clean my house. Of course I won't drop out of school - I have gone into too much debt and too far in my program to quit. But it just feels like it. I am burnt out and tired. I just want to SLEEP and SLEEP and SLEEP. For the past few weeks the most sleep I have really gotten is 4 hours a night - and I cannot function on that. I need at least 8 - 10 hours of sleep to be at my optimal level. Ever since I had mono I have been like that. Hopefully I can get my papers done tonight with the least amount of frustration and then I am off to family camp at Living Waters Camp. That will be nice and relaxing for sure. Spending time with God will be wonderful and secluded from the distractions of the city.