Oprah

I watched a short clip from Oprah yesterday. There was someone on that said that she had weight issues. Oprah corrected her and said "You don't have weight issues, you just have issues in your life that you hide behind your weight". I really like that because that is true for me - I hide behind my weight. My insecurities, my fear of vulnerability, my fear of rejection, etc. It is a scary thing to let people into my life. It is so much easier to not be vulnerable - but it is a very lonely place.

I also did a paper recently on cutting and self-mutilation. One thing that one author said is that not taking medication that is required is a form of self-mutilation. That hit me big time - as I often don't take my medication - claiming that I 'forget' - but I think that I do it because I feel that other people's needs comes first before my own. That is always the case with me - I don't view myself as important enough to make an effort to remember my pills. I really need to be held accountable for this as I am hurting or abusing myself through this. I could develop complications that could result in death (well in extreme cases).